Heres to tomorrow

And it occurred to me, I think on Lambeth Road
There’s no more need to question life
Or cry for what I’m owed
And now its over so now its done
The English sun is setting and the rude boys on the run oh
Still it's good to be in love with someone
When you’ve always had to be with no one
-Dirty Pretty Things

This song and its accompanying video has a very "end of summer" feeling to it, which I think is appropriate for now. Carl Barat has a way of capturing these types of feelings very well in song.

Tonight was the Projekt Revolution tour with My Chemical Romance, Taking Back Sunday, Linkin Park, Saosin, The Bled, HIM, Placebo and a bunch others.

And I wasn't there.

This is the first time I've missed a My Chemical Romance show since the first time they came here. Hmph. I did just see them in April though. And I saw Saosin in March at Taste Of Chaos. But I really wanted to see Taking Back Sunday. They're one of the few bands that I really love that I haven't seen yet.

I hate being broke all the dang time.

We start classes a week from tomorrow. This year is going to be better than the last. It has to be. If I screw it up this time, then I'm pretty much out. I already can't really afford it, and I'm having a hard time getting an outside loan because my credit score isn't good enough yet and everyone else I know has messed up credit. But things somehow worked out last year, and they'll work out this year. I hope.

If I don't get all A's and B's these next two semesters I will not go to London next summer. I finally have the opportunity to go and now it's threatened because of this. If this isn't motivation I don't know what is.

But even more than that, I just want to do it for myself and to show people that I can. I'm not fucking dumb and I know that. And I don't ever want to be in this situation again. Having people being disappointed in you hurts and is no fun what so ever.

I'm not allowing myself to go to as many concerts like I'd want to. Money I make from work needs to be saved up to pay for rent when that money runs out and other things associated with the apartment. Plus my phone bill. And things like food I guess. That's always low on my list it seems. You wouldn't think it looking at me though.

The concerts I'm allowing myself to go to are The Academy Is, Boys Like Girls, The Used, Fall Out Boy & Gym Class Heroes(depending on the price), and Paolo Nutini(if I can find tickets). There are so many more that I want to go to, but I just do not need to spend that money.

I'll go to a few local shows as well. If they're $10 or less.

I'm ready to start this school year. The times they are a-changin.