This semester is finally over. And let's just say it went a lot better than the last one...academically at least. I didn't do great, but eh it's good enough for me. I feel like I actually learned something this time around. That's always a plus, being as I'm paying these people thousands of dollars.
Listen to Tommy with a candle burning, and you'll see your entire future. (Almost Famous)
Oh how I wish it was that easy. 2nd year in and I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm an English major now...and not by choice really. I just know that what ever it is that I end up doing will be some how music related(big surprise) whether it's CHAOS or something else. I'm not interested in much else. I'm no math/science/history person, and I don't know much when it comes to things of that nature. But what I do know is music.
Honestly I will stand by your side to the end (LoveHateHero)
I met so many amazing people this semester that are more than likely going to be lifelong friends. And I am so grateful to have them in my life. Unfortunately what they probably don't know yet is that once I let you in, you're in for life lol.
Trust me. Don't ever live with your best friends. It won't work out. (Candace)
Hahaha... I'm not one for proving people wrong, but I think I did it this time. It wasn't that bad. It had it's ups and downs. But I wouldn't have it any other way. And I definitely grew and matured as a person. I'm definitely less dependent on others than I use to be. And I'm proud of the independence I'm gaining. I like to think I'm preparing myself for those nights alone in my London flat lol.
I've actually started to hate everything that's cool. I never want to be cool! (Gerard Way)
Leave it to Gerard to sum up my whole existence in 2 sentences lol. He changed my life with his music and he continues to inspire and motivate me everyday. Hopefully I'll find someone who will appreciate my "uncoolness" :)
So if you wake up with the sunrise, and all your dreams are still as new
And happiness is what you need so bad, girl, the answer lies with you
-Led Zeppelin
Monday, December 17, 2007
Friday, November 30, 2007
Note to self
"Dear jamie,
The only justice is love. Just let it go. You don't have to write back. You don't have to explain. This is not about being right. There is something true in the song that you can't stop listening to. You don't feel at home anywhere, but you feel at home when Aaron sings that song. Someone calling you a criminal does not make you a criminal, just as someone calling you a hero does not make you a hero. Nobody gets to name you. Find your identity in the one true place. If someone gives you something and then takes it back - that's okay. If someone says something or sees something, and then they don't - it's okay. Do not be like some broken lawyer, always asking for answers, always reaching for rewind. Guilt and regret, those are awful places. You know that. So don't live there. Do not despair. Do not be afraid. Grace is the interesting thing. Hope.
And God must be a pretty big fan of "today", because you keep waking up to it. You have made known your request for a hundred different yesterdays, but the sun keeps rising on this thing that has never been known. Yesterday is dead and over. Wrapped in grace. Those days are grace. You are still alive, and today is the most interesting day. Today is the best place to live.
These things deserve your attention: Your family, your friends, the people you will meet today, the strangers with their stories. "We are all in this together." It is absolutely true. That girl with cancer in her stomach and chaos in her mind. She's with us. That guy with tears in his eyes and ghosts in his heart. He loved her, and you could see it. You could see it, and you told him it wasn't his to carry. You told him about grace, and you told him about the song. And you believed it. You were certain of it. So if it's true for him, then isn't it also true for you?
Wake up. You're alive.
Your Friend,
jamie
PS: And that thing… I know you think about it a lot. I know you don't know what to do with it. It does not define you. It never did. Then or now. You can wear it around your neck. You can throw it to the sea. It doesn't matter. It's not your name. You are free."
I can't tell you how many times I've read this blog entry on Jamie's(To Write Love On Her Arms) myspace and how amazed I am at how I can relate so much to something written about and for another person. But it always always always helps me just put things into perspective and get through whatever it is that I'm going through at the time(which seems to be a lot these days). But I love him for writing it and sharing it with us. :)
The only justice is love. Just let it go. You don't have to write back. You don't have to explain. This is not about being right. There is something true in the song that you can't stop listening to. You don't feel at home anywhere, but you feel at home when Aaron sings that song. Someone calling you a criminal does not make you a criminal, just as someone calling you a hero does not make you a hero. Nobody gets to name you. Find your identity in the one true place. If someone gives you something and then takes it back - that's okay. If someone says something or sees something, and then they don't - it's okay. Do not be like some broken lawyer, always asking for answers, always reaching for rewind. Guilt and regret, those are awful places. You know that. So don't live there. Do not despair. Do not be afraid. Grace is the interesting thing. Hope.
And God must be a pretty big fan of "today", because you keep waking up to it. You have made known your request for a hundred different yesterdays, but the sun keeps rising on this thing that has never been known. Yesterday is dead and over. Wrapped in grace. Those days are grace. You are still alive, and today is the most interesting day. Today is the best place to live.
These things deserve your attention: Your family, your friends, the people you will meet today, the strangers with their stories. "We are all in this together." It is absolutely true. That girl with cancer in her stomach and chaos in her mind. She's with us. That guy with tears in his eyes and ghosts in his heart. He loved her, and you could see it. You could see it, and you told him it wasn't his to carry. You told him about grace, and you told him about the song. And you believed it. You were certain of it. So if it's true for him, then isn't it also true for you?
Wake up. You're alive.
Your Friend,
jamie
PS: And that thing… I know you think about it a lot. I know you don't know what to do with it. It does not define you. It never did. Then or now. You can wear it around your neck. You can throw it to the sea. It doesn't matter. It's not your name. You are free."
I can't tell you how many times I've read this blog entry on Jamie's(To Write Love On Her Arms) myspace and how amazed I am at how I can relate so much to something written about and for another person. But it always always always helps me just put things into perspective and get through whatever it is that I'm going through at the time(which seems to be a lot these days). But I love him for writing it and sharing it with us. :)
Sunday, November 25, 2007
And without you is how I disappear
So last night I was pissed and decided that I should write an entry on here so I could vent. And of course, my internet went out as soon as I logged in to blogger. It was basically going to be about me and all the money problems I'm having as usual and all that stuff. So I go to bed, still pissed and I wake up unusually early. That being 9am. It might not seem early, but for me, especially on the weekend(unless I'm going to a show), that is very early. So I'm up and I decide to check the space, because that's what I do when I first wake up(sad I know). And I see all these "R.I.P. Casey" bulletins and I'm like WTF?? So I go read a bulletin from To Write Love On Her Arms and basically find out that Casey from Hawthorne Heights has passed away.
I think I read the bulletin about 3 times before I actually got it. Then I went to Absolute Punk to see what they said, and sure enough Jason had posted an entry about it too. Now at this point I'm still in utter disbelief and the more I read things the more I kept telling myself that this couldn't be true. I finally went to Hawthorne Heights myspace and read their blog(which was the same thing that everyone had been posting) and I just broke down.
I've been a fan of Hawthorne Heights for about 3 years now. The first time I saw them was at Warped Tour and I bought their cd the next day. I don't think it left my cd player for months. I met them at that Warped and then I met them again at a special acoustic show they played at The Loafing Leprechaun. They're probably some of the nicest guys I've met. And Casey had such a big personality and fun and kind spirit that just drew people to him. I remember talking to him and Eron about how I won their shirt because I was the only one who knew all their names. And as they were leaving I asked Casey for a picture and he said "Of course!!!" and put down all his stuff and came over and took the picture with me. And I just remember thinking, god he's really excited to take a picture with me.
It wasn't until I got to college that anyone had ever given me slack for liking Hawthorne Heights(probably because no one I hung out with listened to them). At first it really hurt my feelings, because they were a band that meant a lot to me for various reasons. Then it just started to get on my nerves because I was tired of having to defend myself about why I like them. And then I didn't care anymore. I had to realize that everyone's not going to like the same artists and bands as me.
Just going back and reading what I just wrote makes it seem like the whole band is gone or something. But they're not. It just that Casey was a huge part of the band that can never be replaced and they aren't ever going to be the same again. Whether or not they decide to go on is up in the air. I hope they do decide to keep going, but if they don't I'll totally support them 100%.
I'll never understand why God does these things. I don't see the point. And the more I think about it the more my heart hurts. This is going to be an interesting week. I can't even begin to imagine what his family must be going through and what the band is going through. To spend everyday with a person and then wake up and they're gone. I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
I just feel so lucky and honored to have seen Casey play live those few times and to have had the opportunity to meet him. He was such a wonderful person and I'm sure changed the lives of many.
Casey Calvert (1981-2007)
I think I read the bulletin about 3 times before I actually got it. Then I went to Absolute Punk to see what they said, and sure enough Jason had posted an entry about it too. Now at this point I'm still in utter disbelief and the more I read things the more I kept telling myself that this couldn't be true. I finally went to Hawthorne Heights myspace and read their blog(which was the same thing that everyone had been posting) and I just broke down.
I've been a fan of Hawthorne Heights for about 3 years now. The first time I saw them was at Warped Tour and I bought their cd the next day. I don't think it left my cd player for months. I met them at that Warped and then I met them again at a special acoustic show they played at The Loafing Leprechaun. They're probably some of the nicest guys I've met. And Casey had such a big personality and fun and kind spirit that just drew people to him. I remember talking to him and Eron about how I won their shirt because I was the only one who knew all their names. And as they were leaving I asked Casey for a picture and he said "Of course!!!" and put down all his stuff and came over and took the picture with me. And I just remember thinking, god he's really excited to take a picture with me.
It wasn't until I got to college that anyone had ever given me slack for liking Hawthorne Heights(probably because no one I hung out with listened to them). At first it really hurt my feelings, because they were a band that meant a lot to me for various reasons. Then it just started to get on my nerves because I was tired of having to defend myself about why I like them. And then I didn't care anymore. I had to realize that everyone's not going to like the same artists and bands as me.
Just going back and reading what I just wrote makes it seem like the whole band is gone or something. But they're not. It just that Casey was a huge part of the band that can never be replaced and they aren't ever going to be the same again. Whether or not they decide to go on is up in the air. I hope they do decide to keep going, but if they don't I'll totally support them 100%.
I'll never understand why God does these things. I don't see the point. And the more I think about it the more my heart hurts. This is going to be an interesting week. I can't even begin to imagine what his family must be going through and what the band is going through. To spend everyday with a person and then wake up and they're gone. I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
I just feel so lucky and honored to have seen Casey play live those few times and to have had the opportunity to meet him. He was such a wonderful person and I'm sure changed the lives of many.
Casey Calvert (1981-2007)Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Thank you Cove
It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching for any sign
Of the ones he used to love..
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left...)
And this time I think you'll know..
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one..
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know...
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(There is more to know)
We're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell..
(So tell me)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(Make it out)
You will live to tell
(Live to tell)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
(And I know)
You can make it out
You will live to tell..
You are not alone.
You're not, you're not alone.
-Saosin
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching for any sign
Of the ones he used to love..
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left...)
And this time I think you'll know..
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one..
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know...
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(There is more to know)
We're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell..
(So tell me)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(Make it out)
You will live to tell
(Live to tell)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
(And I know)
You can make it out
You will live to tell..
You are not alone.
You're not, you're not alone.
-Saosin
Friday, October 12, 2007
You've made us conscious
Just when I started to doubt what we were doing and where this was all going, last night turned it all around. It was just another amazing show; We The Kings, The Audition, and All Time Low...(Boys Like Girls happen to be there as well, but who cares) at The Roxy. With two amazing interviews conducted; All Time Low and The Audition. The whole night in general just reminded me why I love music, why I want to be in this business, and why although it might not seem like it now, but this whole college thing will be worth it in the long run.
When I saw Black Lips at 40 Watt last month(probably one of the best nights of my life) we talked to Ian (guitarist) after the show and he told us how he feels knowing how to make good contacts is very important in life, and then Alex from All Time Low said a very similar thing in our interview with them. And it's true. It's all about who you know. But in my situation, honestly anyone can do this whole "music journalist" thing, but having some credentials behind you just make it that much better in my opinion. Which is why if I can't technically be a journalism major, then an English major will be just fine.
The Academy Is... in exactly one week(masquerade).
Saosin and Norma Jean in one week and two days(masquerade).
Paolo Nutini in two weeks and a day(tabernacle).
It's gonna be amazing!!!
Don't think you're more than this, or above all this
With your "blah blah blah" and all your friends
Don't say you think you know when you know you don't
Because tonight the bulls are in Brooklyn and you're still at home
Some people have it and other people don't
Calm down. It's not a competition.
When I saw Black Lips at 40 Watt last month(probably one of the best nights of my life) we talked to Ian (guitarist) after the show and he told us how he feels knowing how to make good contacts is very important in life, and then Alex from All Time Low said a very similar thing in our interview with them. And it's true. It's all about who you know. But in my situation, honestly anyone can do this whole "music journalist" thing, but having some credentials behind you just make it that much better in my opinion. Which is why if I can't technically be a journalism major, then an English major will be just fine.
The Academy Is... in exactly one week(masquerade).
Saosin and Norma Jean in one week and two days(masquerade).
Paolo Nutini in two weeks and a day(tabernacle).
It's gonna be amazing!!!
Don't think you're more than this, or above all this
With your "blah blah blah" and all your friends
Don't say you think you know when you know you don't
Because tonight the bulls are in Brooklyn and you're still at home
Some people have it and other people don't
Calm down. It's not a competition.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
The mutha fuckin Used
Yeah. I can't even call them "The Used" anymore. Not after their show last Friday night. It was amazing! And it's crazy to think that that was only my second time seeing them. Meeting Quinn and Dan was nice, but meeting Jepha was probably the highlight of my LIFE. Okay not really, but it was pretty sweet. I love that man. And I got his set list, which was an added bonus. They didn't play On My Own or Box Full Of Sharp objects which was a bummer, but we got to hear the new song Pain. I would've have much preferred the other two honestly. That was the only down part of the show. The openers, Josephine Collective, were really good. A pleasant surprise. Army Of Me was alright. But The Bled killed it! They were soooooo good. Definitely the perfect band to play before The Used. They're really good musicians and James is an amazing front man.
Meeting Bert would have been nice, but I think he's one of those people that meeting him seems unobtainable to me. I don't know why. Plenty of people have met him. I'm just weird about that.
We say things we didn't mean to say
I take it back, I take it all back now
I take it back, I take it all back
-The Used
Meeting Bert would have been nice, but I think he's one of those people that meeting him seems unobtainable to me. I don't know why. Plenty of people have met him. I'm just weird about that.
Oh how these moments fade away
You say you never loved meWe say things we didn't mean to say
I take it back, I take it all back now
I take it back, I take it all back
-The Used
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Get me some parchment and a quill
I think as technology gets more and more advanced we are slowly losing some of the most special and intimate forms of communication, such as letter writing. I want a pen pal. I had one like a year ago, we met through My Chemical Romance(yeah), but we lost touch. I think that's the problem with everything I do. I'll start something then either lose interest or get distracted and never go back. Such is the story of my life. But this time I'll make myself stick with it. Plus I love getting mail. :)
So we've been in the new apartment, aka "Casa de CHAOS" for a week now. I can't explain how wonderful it is to live in my own apartment and to be able to live with my best friends. Yes we get on each others nerves at times, but at the end of the day all of that is put behind us. Plus I don't think that any of us could stay mad at the other for more than a minute...well maybe 5lol . It's probably one of the best decisions I've made and I'm so lucky to have these 3 amazing ladies in my life. Makes it a little better.
As far as school goes. That's the same ol same ol. I'm taking an Anthropology class which seems like it's going to be very interesting. A lot of people don't know this, but there once was a time when I really considered becoming anEgyptologist . I think I'll keep that as a hobby for now. I'm also taking English, a New Media class, which also seems like it'll be very interesting, and a Journalism class that's intro to print media...yep, this CHAOS girl is on top of thingslol.
Speaking of CHAOS, there have been some ups and downs recently, but everything is a learning experience. We can't expect everything to go our way all the time. We're very lucky to get to do the things that we do now. And for every bump in the road, there are a ton more things that are going to be happening for us. We've done some really fun interviews with some amazing bands recently and we've got some more coming up. There's one band in particular I'm really excited about because they're from Australia and they'll be our first "international" interview if you will. Plus I really love their music and they're not only playing a show in Atlanta, but they're coming to Athens too. I'm trying to help them with booking the Athens show, which is cool because it's always fun to bring a band that you really like to your city.
F.Y.I.- The CHAOS girls + 80s one hit wonders + YouTube = Insanity
We each have our distinctive 80s song:
KristenCHAOS- "Total Eclipse Of The Heart" by Bonnie Tyler
AshleyCHAOS- She says anything by Culture Club so I'm giving her "Karma Chameleon"
LaurenCHAOS- "Take On Me" by A-Ha
I'm trying to get mine changed to "Never Gonna Give You Up" by Rick Astley though. Best song ever! :)
Well it's almost 2:30am and I have an 11:15am class tomorrow, so I need to get some sleep. Tonight I'm listening to the wonderful amazingly talented 20 year old Scottish singing sensation Paolo Nutini. I swear, that boy's voice melts my heart. I can't even describe it. I still kick myself for missing his first Georgia show(stupid Halifax playing the same night lol). It was back in March at Smiths Old Bar. This was way before he was as popular as he is now. And 5 months later, everyone knows Paolo and the he's playing the fricken Tabernacle now. Oh how I wish I could've kept him in my back pocket for a little longer. But I will definitely be there, front row, trying not to pass out haha.
So we've been in the new apartment, aka "Casa de CHAOS" for a week now. I can't explain how wonderful it is to live in my own apartment and to be able to live with my best friends. Yes we get on each others nerves at times, but at the end of the day all of that is put behind us. Plus I don't think that any of us could stay mad at the other for more than a minute...well maybe 5lol . It's probably one of the best decisions I've made and I'm so lucky to have these 3 amazing ladies in my life. Makes it a little better.
As far as school goes. That's the same ol same ol. I'm taking an Anthropology class which seems like it's going to be very interesting. A lot of people don't know this, but there once was a time when I really considered becoming anEgyptologist . I think I'll keep that as a hobby for now. I'm also taking English, a New Media class, which also seems like it'll be very interesting, and a Journalism class that's intro to print media...yep, this CHAOS girl is on top of thingslol.
Speaking of CHAOS, there have been some ups and downs recently, but everything is a learning experience. We can't expect everything to go our way all the time. We're very lucky to get to do the things that we do now. And for every bump in the road, there are a ton more things that are going to be happening for us. We've done some really fun interviews with some amazing bands recently and we've got some more coming up. There's one band in particular I'm really excited about because they're from Australia and they'll be our first "international" interview if you will. Plus I really love their music and they're not only playing a show in Atlanta, but they're coming to Athens too. I'm trying to help them with booking the Athens show, which is cool because it's always fun to bring a band that you really like to your city.
F.Y.I.- The CHAOS girls + 80s one hit wonders + YouTube = Insanity
We each have our distinctive 80s song:
KristenCHAOS- "Total Eclipse Of The Heart" by Bonnie Tyler
AshleyCHAOS- She says anything by Culture Club so I'm giving her "Karma Chameleon"
LaurenCHAOS- "Take On Me" by A-Ha
I'm trying to get mine changed to "Never Gonna Give You Up" by Rick Astley though. Best song ever! :)
Well it's almost 2:30am and I have an 11:15am class tomorrow, so I need to get some sleep. Tonight I'm listening to the wonderful amazingly talented 20 year old Scottish singing sensation Paolo Nutini. I swear, that boy's voice melts my heart. I can't even describe it. I still kick myself for missing his first Georgia show(stupid Halifax playing the same night lol). It was back in March at Smiths Old Bar. This was way before he was as popular as he is now. And 5 months later, everyone knows Paolo and the he's playing the fricken Tabernacle now. Oh how I wish I could've kept him in my back pocket for a little longer. But I will definitely be there, front row, trying not to pass out haha.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Congratuwelldone
That's right, Congratuwelldone. It's a new word coined by the amazingly talented comedian David Walliams on the Big Fat Quiz Of The Year 2006 show that airs on BBC in the UK. It was probably one of the funniest statements made on the show that night. Well that and Noel Fielding and Russell Brand's "Goth Detectives". Hell, everything Noel and Russell said lol.
I love British Comedies. Well I love comedies in general, but it just seems that the Brits do it very well. Some of my favourite comedy shows, and shows in general are from the UK.
The Mighty Boosh
Little Britain
Monty Python
Never Mind The Buzzcocks
My Family
The Catherine Tate Show
The Young Ones
The Office
Green Wing
Peep Show
Keeping Up Appearances
Absolutely Fabulous
Are You Being Served?
Mr. Bean
I'm Alan Partridge
Some of these are old shows, but they're good ones. A lot of British Comedy isn't obvious funny. Sometimes you have to think to get the jokes. And I love that type of comedy.
Individually, some of my favourite UK TV/Stand Up comedians are Noel Fielding, Julian Barratt, Simon Amstell, Russell Brand, Jennifer Saunders, Dylan Moran, Dawn French, Ricky Gervais, David Walliams, Rik Mayall, Matt Lucas, Catherine Tate, Eddie Izzard, Steve Coogan and all the Monty Python guys =)
These guys and gals are comedic geniuses and can always make me feel better when I'm having a bad day. There's no telling how many times I've been really upset and just watching an episode of The Mighty Boosh can put me, instantly, into a better mood.
It just really sucks that we don't get BBCAmerica and we won't get it in the apartment I think. Some of the older shows come on PBS on Saturday nights. But I guess I'll have to keep on watching all the newer shows on YouTube.
Today I'm listening to the band Babyshambles. The band is fronted by the amazingly talented and gifted Pete Doherty. They are a band that I would like to think have a special little place in my heart. Only because I really really really want them to make it. I want Pete to make it. Hopefully he can get himself together before it's too late. He's got a very special gift and there's too much talent in that band for it to all go to waste.
I'll leave you with this...
Russell Brand & Noel Fielding...Goth Detectives
I love British Comedies. Well I love comedies in general, but it just seems that the Brits do it very well. Some of my favourite comedy shows, and shows in general are from the UK.
The Mighty Boosh
Little Britain
Monty Python
Never Mind The Buzzcocks
My Family
The Catherine Tate Show
The Young Ones
The Office
Green Wing
Peep Show
Keeping Up Appearances
Absolutely Fabulous
Are You Being Served?
Mr. Bean
I'm Alan Partridge
Some of these are old shows, but they're good ones. A lot of British Comedy isn't obvious funny. Sometimes you have to think to get the jokes. And I love that type of comedy.
Individually, some of my favourite UK TV/Stand Up comedians are Noel Fielding, Julian Barratt, Simon Amstell, Russell Brand, Jennifer Saunders, Dylan Moran, Dawn French, Ricky Gervais, David Walliams, Rik Mayall, Matt Lucas, Catherine Tate, Eddie Izzard, Steve Coogan and all the Monty Python guys =)
These guys and gals are comedic geniuses and can always make me feel better when I'm having a bad day. There's no telling how many times I've been really upset and just watching an episode of The Mighty Boosh can put me, instantly, into a better mood.
It just really sucks that we don't get BBCAmerica and we won't get it in the apartment I think. Some of the older shows come on PBS on Saturday nights. But I guess I'll have to keep on watching all the newer shows on YouTube.
Today I'm listening to the band Babyshambles. The band is fronted by the amazingly talented and gifted Pete Doherty. They are a band that I would like to think have a special little place in my heart. Only because I really really really want them to make it. I want Pete to make it. Hopefully he can get himself together before it's too late. He's got a very special gift and there's too much talent in that band for it to all go to waste.
I'll leave you with this...
Russell Brand & Noel Fielding...Goth Detectives
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
Heres to tomorrow
And it occurred to me, I think on Lambeth Road
There’s no more need to question life
Or cry for what I’m owed
And now its over so now its done
The English sun is setting and the rude boys on the run oh
Still it's good to be in love with someone
When you’ve always had to be with no one
-Dirty Pretty Things
This song and its accompanying video has a very "end of summer" feeling to it, which I think is appropriate for now. Carl Barat has a way of capturing these types of feelings very well in song.
Tonight was the Projekt Revolution tour with My Chemical Romance, Taking Back Sunday, Linkin Park, Saosin, The Bled, HIM, Placebo and a bunch others.
And I wasn't there.
This is the first time I've missed a My Chemical Romance show since the first time they came here. Hmph. I did just see them in April though. And I saw Saosin in March at Taste Of Chaos. But I really wanted to see Taking Back Sunday. They're one of the few bands that I really love that I haven't seen yet.
I hate being broke all the dang time.
We start classes a week from tomorrow. This year is going to be better than the last. It has to be. If I screw it up this time, then I'm pretty much out. I already can't really afford it, and I'm having a hard time getting an outside loan because my credit score isn't good enough yet and everyone else I know has messed up credit. But things somehow worked out last year, and they'll work out this year. I hope.
If I don't get all A's and B's these next two semesters I will not go to London next summer. I finally have the opportunity to go and now it's threatened because of this. If this isn't motivation I don't know what is.
But even more than that, I just want to do it for myself and to show people that I can. I'm not fucking dumb and I know that. And I don't ever want to be in this situation again. Having people being disappointed in you hurts and is no fun what so ever.
I'm not allowing myself to go to as many concerts like I'd want to. Money I make from work needs to be saved up to pay for rent when that money runs out and other things associated with the apartment. Plus my phone bill. And things like food I guess. That's always low on my list it seems. You wouldn't think it looking at me though.
The concerts I'm allowing myself to go to are The Academy Is, Boys Like Girls, The Used, Fall Out Boy & Gym Class Heroes(depending on the price), and Paolo Nutini(if I can find tickets). There are so many more that I want to go to, but I just do not need to spend that money.
I'll go to a few local shows as well. If they're $10 or less.
I'm ready to start this school year. The times they are a-changin.
There’s no more need to question life
Or cry for what I’m owed
And now its over so now its done
The English sun is setting and the rude boys on the run oh
Still it's good to be in love with someone
When you’ve always had to be with no one
-Dirty Pretty Things
This song and its accompanying video has a very "end of summer" feeling to it, which I think is appropriate for now. Carl Barat has a way of capturing these types of feelings very well in song.
Tonight was the Projekt Revolution tour with My Chemical Romance, Taking Back Sunday, Linkin Park, Saosin, The Bled, HIM, Placebo and a bunch others.
And I wasn't there.
This is the first time I've missed a My Chemical Romance show since the first time they came here. Hmph. I did just see them in April though. And I saw Saosin in March at Taste Of Chaos. But I really wanted to see Taking Back Sunday. They're one of the few bands that I really love that I haven't seen yet.
I hate being broke all the dang time.
We start classes a week from tomorrow. This year is going to be better than the last. It has to be. If I screw it up this time, then I'm pretty much out. I already can't really afford it, and I'm having a hard time getting an outside loan because my credit score isn't good enough yet and everyone else I know has messed up credit. But things somehow worked out last year, and they'll work out this year. I hope.
If I don't get all A's and B's these next two semesters I will not go to London next summer. I finally have the opportunity to go and now it's threatened because of this. If this isn't motivation I don't know what is.
But even more than that, I just want to do it for myself and to show people that I can. I'm not fucking dumb and I know that. And I don't ever want to be in this situation again. Having people being disappointed in you hurts and is no fun what so ever.
I'm not allowing myself to go to as many concerts like I'd want to. Money I make from work needs to be saved up to pay for rent when that money runs out and other things associated with the apartment. Plus my phone bill. And things like food I guess. That's always low on my list it seems. You wouldn't think it looking at me though.
The concerts I'm allowing myself to go to are The Academy Is, Boys Like Girls, The Used, Fall Out Boy & Gym Class Heroes(depending on the price), and Paolo Nutini(if I can find tickets). There are so many more that I want to go to, but I just do not need to spend that money.
I'll go to a few local shows as well. If they're $10 or less.
I'm ready to start this school year. The times they are a-changin.
Friday, August 3, 2007
I could write it better than you ever felt it
I love Fall Out Boy.
They're not my favourite band, but they're up there.
And Infinity on High is definitely an amazing cd.
But Hum Hallelujah has never really meant much to me until now.
It's a good song.
FYI: Being called a disappointment fucking hurts. Don't ever do it.
Right now I'm listening to Fall Out Boy(big surprise). You all know them, so there's no need to introduce them to you. Infinity reminds me of being in Athens. It was for some reason the cd I listened to when I was up late writing papers.
love love love all around
They're not my favourite band, but they're up there.
And Infinity on High is definitely an amazing cd.
But Hum Hallelujah has never really meant much to me until now.
It's a good song.
FYI: Being called a disappointment fucking hurts. Don't ever do it.
Right now I'm listening to Fall Out Boy(big surprise). You all know them, so there's no need to introduce them to you. Infinity reminds me of being in Athens. It was for some reason the cd I listened to when I was up late writing papers.
love love love all around
Monday, July 30, 2007
I'll make him an offer he can't refuse
This was an amazing weekend...TV wise anyway. All weekend on AMC they showed The Godfather I & II. And anyone who knows me, knows that these are two of my favourite movies of all time and I definitely watched them every time they came on. I don't know, but there's something about this sense of family being the most important thing and doing everything first and foremost for the family that I truly admire and respect. Even if they were the mafia lol.
"Fredo, you're my older brother, and I love you. But don't ever take sides with anyone against the family again. Ever."- Michael Corleone (The Godfather I)
Other than that, I spent a lot of time this weekend "discovering" new bands. There are so many Atlanta bands that I had no idea existed and they're all really good. It's always a pleasant surprise when something like that happens. I think when I have more time I'll make a post on these bands. Along with my UK bands post as well. And my Dirty Pretty Things post. Man I need to get on this lol.
Today I'm listening to one of the Atlanta bands I "discovered" this weekend called The Selmanaires. They're another rock/psychedelic/punk-ish band. They're sort of similar to The Black Lips. Just as good too. Hopefully I'll be seeing them at The 40 Watt with The Black Lips in September.
"Fredo, you're my older brother, and I love you. But don't ever take sides with anyone against the family again. Ever."- Michael Corleone (The Godfather I)
Other than that, I spent a lot of time this weekend "discovering" new bands. There are so many Atlanta bands that I had no idea existed and they're all really good. It's always a pleasant surprise when something like that happens. I think when I have more time I'll make a post on these bands. Along with my UK bands post as well. And my Dirty Pretty Things post. Man I need to get on this lol.
Today I'm listening to one of the Atlanta bands I "discovered" this weekend called The Selmanaires. They're another rock/psychedelic/punk-ish band. They're sort of similar to The Black Lips. Just as good too. Hopefully I'll be seeing them at The 40 Watt with The Black Lips in September.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
R-E-S-P-E-C-T M-Y H-U-S-T-L-E
Respect this hustle, respect this hustle
Won't accept nothin less, so respect this hustle
I ain't in it for the fame I ain't in it for the glory
I'm down to die for it absolutely mandatory
-T.I.
Big things are going to be happening for CHAOS. I can feel it in me bonessss. We got the drama with the website figured out so we've finally got it up, and for a few hours of work, it looks really good. Ashlay-lay is amazing and within the next few weeks I already know the site is going to be ACE.
In having a heart to heart via IM with the webmistress extraordinaire, we realized that this is pretty much what we're destined to do. We can't see ourselves in any other professions(although I wouldn't mind being a chef or working for CNN lol) There's a reason for everything. There was a reason why I decided to go to UGA instead of Xavier even though Xavier gave me an awesome scholarship, and there was a reason why Ashley didn't go to the Art Institute. There was a reason why we all chose to be Journalism majors. There was a reason why we all decided to take astronomy and there was a reason why Lauren wore her "The Academy Is" shirt that one day that made me notice her. And fast forward to today and we're all BFF.
CHAOS is what we want to do with the rest of our lives. This isn't some hobby, or past time for us. We're not trying to become famous or anything, we just want CHAOS to become a reputable, intriguing, and fun magazine that is unlike anything else out there. We're not trying to be music snobs and say we know everything about the scene, because we don't. We just want people to read our view points on certain music, ideas, trends, scenes, fashion, photography, everything.
We're just 3 ladies from Georgia that have something to say, and we finally have a vehicle to do it. I can't wait for the day when we get to the point where people will be saying,
"Oh yeah, I know the CHAOS girls. I really respect their opinions and they always do great interviews with intriguing and interesting questions that I won't read in any old magazine. They're actually interested in more than who so and so is dating or whether they wear boxers or briefs. They realize that there's more to these musicians than looks and they dig deep into the music and lyrics. These are the kind of girls I want to get to know. Plus they're hella fun to hang out with" - lol
When we finally get a printed version we're going to have a huge launch party for our first issue. Maybe we could rent out Tasty World. That would be so much fun. But it would make more sense to do something in Atlanta since that's where most of the people we would want at the launch party live. It might even have to just be at my house lol. But it's going to be AMAZING either way.
Speaking of houses... were about 3 weeks from moving into La casa de CHAOS. Okay it's really an apartment, but anything is better than the dorms. Plus I'll be living with 3 of my bestest friends. I feel all grown up living in my own apartment. It's gonna be fun fun fun. I'm thinking "La casa de CHAOS" is going to be like Andy Warhol's "The Factory"...minus the drugs and booze. But there will be plenty of great parties and happenings, and artistic dealings going on.
It's gonna be hot. Trust me.
Tonight I'm listening to an Atlanta based band called Black Lips. They're a psychedelic/rock band. It pretty refreshing listening to a band like this.
Won't accept nothin less, so respect this hustle
I ain't in it for the fame I ain't in it for the glory
I'm down to die for it absolutely mandatory
-T.I.
Big things are going to be happening for CHAOS. I can feel it in me bonessss. We got the drama with the website figured out so we've finally got it up, and for a few hours of work, it looks really good. Ashlay-lay is amazing and within the next few weeks I already know the site is going to be ACE.
In having a heart to heart via IM with the webmistress extraordinaire, we realized that this is pretty much what we're destined to do. We can't see ourselves in any other professions(although I wouldn't mind being a chef or working for CNN lol) There's a reason for everything. There was a reason why I decided to go to UGA instead of Xavier even though Xavier gave me an awesome scholarship, and there was a reason why Ashley didn't go to the Art Institute. There was a reason why we all chose to be Journalism majors. There was a reason why we all decided to take astronomy and there was a reason why Lauren wore her "The Academy Is" shirt that one day that made me notice her. And fast forward to today and we're all BFF.
CHAOS is what we want to do with the rest of our lives. This isn't some hobby, or past time for us. We're not trying to become famous or anything, we just want CHAOS to become a reputable, intriguing, and fun magazine that is unlike anything else out there. We're not trying to be music snobs and say we know everything about the scene, because we don't. We just want people to read our view points on certain music, ideas, trends, scenes, fashion, photography, everything.
We're just 3 ladies from Georgia that have something to say, and we finally have a vehicle to do it. I can't wait for the day when we get to the point where people will be saying,
"Oh yeah, I know the CHAOS girls. I really respect their opinions and they always do great interviews with intriguing and interesting questions that I won't read in any old magazine. They're actually interested in more than who so and so is dating or whether they wear boxers or briefs. They realize that there's more to these musicians than looks and they dig deep into the music and lyrics. These are the kind of girls I want to get to know. Plus they're hella fun to hang out with" - lol
When we finally get a printed version we're going to have a huge launch party for our first issue. Maybe we could rent out Tasty World. That would be so much fun. But it would make more sense to do something in Atlanta since that's where most of the people we would want at the launch party live. It might even have to just be at my house lol. But it's going to be AMAZING either way.
Speaking of houses... were about 3 weeks from moving into La casa de CHAOS. Okay it's really an apartment, but anything is better than the dorms. Plus I'll be living with 3 of my bestest friends. I feel all grown up living in my own apartment. It's gonna be fun fun fun. I'm thinking "La casa de CHAOS" is going to be like Andy Warhol's "The Factory"...minus the drugs and booze. But there will be plenty of great parties and happenings, and artistic dealings going on.
It's gonna be hot. Trust me.
Tonight I'm listening to an Atlanta based band called Black Lips. They're a psychedelic/rock band. It pretty refreshing listening to a band like this.
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Boys In The Band
You're walking like you never seen the light
You're walking like it every night
But I've never seen you dance, and I've never heard you sing
So how can it mean a single thing
It's all so rudimentary
-The Libertines
Last Wednesday was Warped Tour. It was over all a pretty great day. And in the course of that day I managed to lose my lip ring and my phone(for about 20mins). The phone was found thank god, but the lip ring wasn't. And I think I might have to get it re-pierced now. But whatever. I saw a bunch of new bands this year which was really cool. And unlike all the previous years I actually had a schedule, so we were all pretty busy seeing a band for the majority of the day. That definitely made the day go by faster, but it was all good. Here's the list of bands I saw:
All Time Low- 2nd time
The Almost- 1st time
Bless The Fall- 1st time(the phone drama happened during their set though so I didn't see the whole thing which really sucked)
Boys Like Girls- 2nd time(one word...PAUL!!!)
Evaline- I didn't see their set(saw them at TOC though), but we did meet them at their tent and got a picture
Family Force 5- 3rd time(met them again at their M&G...wasn't that much fun)
Holiday Parade- 2nd time(we got a fist pound hell yeah!!)
The Matches- 1st time
My American Heart-1st time(I LOVE this band!!! We met Dustin while waiting in line to get in)
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus- 1st time(I felt kinda sick during their set so we left, but we came back for the last song)
Spill Canvas- 1st time(They are AMAZING live!!!)
Seven Story Fall- 100th time(Not really, but I've seen them a bunch. I was soo proud of them!)
Yellowcard- 1st time(Okay, I really only heard them while waiting for MAH to start)
Some guy took my picture and then one of me and Lauren together for a tattoo and piercing magazine called "Luxury Ink" that should be on stands in October he said. I can't seem to find any information on the magazine though. Kinda shady...
We didn't get as much free stuff this year like usual which was a bummer. And I was hoping that maybe Steven from SURS would be there since it was Wednesday and they do the whole "Warped Wednesday" thing on FUSE. But he wasn't. =( One of my goals in life is to meet him.
We've got a lot of big plans for CHAOS which I'm really excited about. I read somewhere that only 1 in 10 new magazines ever make it. We have a lot of work to do to set ourselves apart, but I know we can do it. I think we've gained a lot of experience over the past few months, but we've still got a lot of learning to do. We've made a lot of really good friends and connections "in the business" you could say that I think will help us. I think if we stay true to our original goals and stay true to ourselves and our vision, we can be the next AP magazine. Plus the fact that we're actually going to school for this will be a HUGE help lol.
Today I'm listening to a band from Dryburgh, Scotland called The View. I first heard of them from the NME tour they did with The Horrors. I can't really understand what they're saying when they speak, but the music's good lol
You're walking like it every night
But I've never seen you dance, and I've never heard you sing
So how can it mean a single thing
It's all so rudimentary
-The Libertines
Last Wednesday was Warped Tour. It was over all a pretty great day. And in the course of that day I managed to lose my lip ring and my phone(for about 20mins). The phone was found thank god, but the lip ring wasn't. And I think I might have to get it re-pierced now. But whatever. I saw a bunch of new bands this year which was really cool. And unlike all the previous years I actually had a schedule, so we were all pretty busy seeing a band for the majority of the day. That definitely made the day go by faster, but it was all good. Here's the list of bands I saw:
All Time Low- 2nd time
The Almost- 1st time
Bless The Fall- 1st time(the phone drama happened during their set though so I didn't see the whole thing which really sucked)
Boys Like Girls- 2nd time(one word...PAUL!!!)
Evaline- I didn't see their set(saw them at TOC though), but we did meet them at their tent and got a picture
Family Force 5- 3rd time(met them again at their M&G...wasn't that much fun)
Holiday Parade- 2nd time(we got a fist pound hell yeah!!)
The Matches- 1st time
My American Heart-1st time(I LOVE this band!!! We met Dustin while waiting in line to get in)
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus- 1st time(I felt kinda sick during their set so we left, but we came back for the last song)
Spill Canvas- 1st time(They are AMAZING live!!!)
Seven Story Fall- 100th time(Not really, but I've seen them a bunch. I was soo proud of them!)
Yellowcard- 1st time(Okay, I really only heard them while waiting for MAH to start)
Some guy took my picture and then one of me and Lauren together for a tattoo and piercing magazine called "Luxury Ink" that should be on stands in October he said. I can't seem to find any information on the magazine though. Kinda shady...
We didn't get as much free stuff this year like usual which was a bummer. And I was hoping that maybe Steven from SURS would be there since it was Wednesday and they do the whole "Warped Wednesday" thing on FUSE. But he wasn't. =( One of my goals in life is to meet him.
We've got a lot of big plans for CHAOS which I'm really excited about. I read somewhere that only 1 in 10 new magazines ever make it. We have a lot of work to do to set ourselves apart, but I know we can do it. I think we've gained a lot of experience over the past few months, but we've still got a lot of learning to do. We've made a lot of really good friends and connections "in the business" you could say that I think will help us. I think if we stay true to our original goals and stay true to ourselves and our vision, we can be the next AP magazine. Plus the fact that we're actually going to school for this will be a HUGE help lol.
Today I'm listening to a band from Dryburgh, Scotland called The View. I first heard of them from the NME tour they did with The Horrors. I can't really understand what they're saying when they speak, but the music's good lol
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Whatcha know about me?
So I just spent the last 30 mins or so looking at/reading other people's blogs, and it's "inspired" me to go ahead and write another. I didn't really feel like it but Leslie Simon(AP writer) says that the best time to write is when you don't feel like it...or something like that.
Warped Tour is tomorrow. I'm not as excited about it as I usually am. I think it's because they're aren't as many big bands that I'm dieing to see like the previous years. There are a bunch of great smaller bands though. It'll be a fun day. I think it's the whole atmosphere that I love at Warped. Maybe I'll meet some cool people. That always seems to happen. It's raining right now, but I hope hope hope it doesn't rain tomorrow.
Something that's really bugging me right now is people who brag. I can't stand it. Everyone likes to share their accomplishments, but there's a difference between that and just down right bragging. I don't care who you know/where you went/what you saw/etc. Majority of the time I'm half listening anyway. I just nod my head and say "Oh that's cool". I'm no one you need to impress so stop trying.
Another thing is sympathy. I consider myself a very sympathetic person, but sometimes I just can't feel sorry for a person. This usually only ever occurs when it's something that they brought upon themselves. I heard it a lot in school. People complaining because they had 3 papers to write and they're due the next day. Or someone decides to do a bunch of stuff at once. I don't feel sorry for you. It's your fault. So it's mostly stuff like that where my sympathy goes out the window.
Umm...don't make plans for me. I HATE THAT!! This happened a lot this year. Don't assume I'll just want to do something or go somewhere. Even if you know I'll want to(and I probably will), still ask me. It makes me feel a lot better. I like when people want my opinion just like everyone else. And if I don't have an opinion about something, get over it. I obviously don't care, so what you want is fine with me. But getting mad is just silly.
Man this blog turned into a huge rant didn't it? I hadn't plan to, but I guess it just poured out of me today. But eh, whatcha gonna do? I'll probably have a "Warped recap" for tomorrow or whenever I get around to writing it.
Today I'm listening to a lovely band from Sunderland, England called The Futureheads. I think a majority of the music I'm listening to these days is from across the pond. There are just so many great bands and musicians that we over here in the good ole US of A are missing out on. I think I'll make that into a blog one day. Oh, and I've still got my blog on Dirty Pretty Things to come =)
Warped Tour is tomorrow. I'm not as excited about it as I usually am. I think it's because they're aren't as many big bands that I'm dieing to see like the previous years. There are a bunch of great smaller bands though. It'll be a fun day. I think it's the whole atmosphere that I love at Warped. Maybe I'll meet some cool people. That always seems to happen. It's raining right now, but I hope hope hope it doesn't rain tomorrow.
Something that's really bugging me right now is people who brag. I can't stand it. Everyone likes to share their accomplishments, but there's a difference between that and just down right bragging. I don't care who you know/where you went/what you saw/etc. Majority of the time I'm half listening anyway. I just nod my head and say "Oh that's cool". I'm no one you need to impress so stop trying.
Another thing is sympathy. I consider myself a very sympathetic person, but sometimes I just can't feel sorry for a person. This usually only ever occurs when it's something that they brought upon themselves. I heard it a lot in school. People complaining because they had 3 papers to write and they're due the next day. Or someone decides to do a bunch of stuff at once. I don't feel sorry for you. It's your fault. So it's mostly stuff like that where my sympathy goes out the window.
Umm...don't make plans for me. I HATE THAT!! This happened a lot this year. Don't assume I'll just want to do something or go somewhere. Even if you know I'll want to(and I probably will), still ask me. It makes me feel a lot better. I like when people want my opinion just like everyone else. And if I don't have an opinion about something, get over it. I obviously don't care, so what you want is fine with me. But getting mad is just silly.
Man this blog turned into a huge rant didn't it? I hadn't plan to, but I guess it just poured out of me today. But eh, whatcha gonna do? I'll probably have a "Warped recap" for tomorrow or whenever I get around to writing it.
Today I'm listening to a lovely band from Sunderland, England called The Futureheads. I think a majority of the music I'm listening to these days is from across the pond. There are just so many great bands and musicians that we over here in the good ole US of A are missing out on. I think I'll make that into a blog one day. Oh, and I've still got my blog on Dirty Pretty Things to come =)
Monday, July 16, 2007
This is a public service announcement...
Only not with guitars. (There's going to be a lot of song references in these here blogs I can already see... it's The Clash btw)
So as if I didn't have enough "online" journal type things, here's another one. Only I suspect this one will probably be more personal than the others. I don't know. Just as random though. I didn't realize it would be so hard to pick a blog name and url though. I think I just over analyze these things. Well as to a little insight on why I picked them, it all has to do with music baby(as does everything else in my life).
To start, the blog name, "Ramble On" is the title of one of my favourite Led Zeppelin songs. And Led Zeppelin is my favourite band. It seems to fit this perfectly. It'll more than likely change. But I like it for now. And my url is "up the racket" which I initially got from the name of The Libertines first album "Up The Bracket". Now "up the bracket" according to wikipedia is an English slang term for "snorting cocaine", or it could be "a punch in the throat". And being that I am a non-violent straight edge gal, "up the bracket" wasn't going to work(plus I think it was already taken lol), so I went with "racket". I'm all for loud noises. I do love The Libertines "Up The Bracket" though, so everyone should check it out.
Oh yeah, in addition to my pointless and some times nonsensical ramblings, I'll also probably use this blog for telling who I'm listening to/what I'm into at the moment. I don't expect to have a lot of(if any) readers here, but this is definitely something I need right now. =)
To start it off...right now(and probably forever) I'm listening to Dirty Pretty Things. More on them later.
So as if I didn't have enough "online" journal type things, here's another one. Only I suspect this one will probably be more personal than the others. I don't know. Just as random though. I didn't realize it would be so hard to pick a blog name and url though. I think I just over analyze these things. Well as to a little insight on why I picked them, it all has to do with music baby(as does everything else in my life).
To start, the blog name, "Ramble On" is the title of one of my favourite Led Zeppelin songs. And Led Zeppelin is my favourite band. It seems to fit this perfectly. It'll more than likely change. But I like it for now. And my url is "up the racket" which I initially got from the name of The Libertines first album "Up The Bracket". Now "up the bracket" according to wikipedia is an English slang term for "snorting cocaine", or it could be "a punch in the throat". And being that I am a non-violent straight edge gal, "up the bracket" wasn't going to work(plus I think it was already taken lol), so I went with "racket". I'm all for loud noises. I do love The Libertines "Up The Bracket" though, so everyone should check it out.
Oh yeah, in addition to my pointless and some times nonsensical ramblings, I'll also probably use this blog for telling who I'm listening to/what I'm into at the moment. I don't expect to have a lot of(if any) readers here, but this is definitely something I need right now. =)
To start it off...right now(and probably forever) I'm listening to Dirty Pretty Things. More on them later.
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