So I was watching tv last night and I heard something that really really bugs me. It was said by a bigger girl, and she pretty much said that because of the fact that's she's big she only likes wearing jeans and t-shirts. And that nothing fits her. Now hearing that bugs the crap out of me. I honestly think that's a cop out and an excuse.
There are plenty of cute clothes for bigger girls. You just have to look for them. And really they're not that hard to find anyway. Trust me, I know lol.
I know that I could stand to lose a lottttttttt of weight lol, but it's a process and until I'm at the size I want to be, I'm not just going to let myself go. I mean you can still be cute but jeeze. You gotta try sometimes. You've gotta have some confidence in yourself.
While I'm on that subject, it also bugs me when I hear people talk about how they hate how they look yet they don't do anything about it. It's like, you're not going to wake up and be skinnier. Sorry. You gotta work at it.
You only get one body, love it, and as Tim Gunn would say...Make It Work! (Oh how I miss Project Runway)
It's taken me a looooong time to get to this point in my life. The point where I love myself for me and I'm actually content with myself. There are still plenty of times where I'll see girls and be like God, they're so skinny and there's that hint of jealousy. But that's human. And then I'm over it.
Although now it seems most of the jealousy is because of the boys *cough*WilliamBeckett*cough* lol. They're all so tiny nowadays. Gotta love scene boys hahaha.
My goal for the summer is to continue to build up my confidence. Especially learning to speak up when I've got something to say. I don't want anymore regrets, no more "I should have said something on the damn stairs". No more waiting around for the right words to say. I'm just going to go for it. And what happens, happens.
LO
VE
Friday, May 30, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
I Don't Know About You, But I Came To Dance
The Cab-Danger Radio-The Maine-Metro Station-Forever The Sickest Kids
I don't really know where to start with this one.
There's so much I want to get out, so much that happened.
But my brain moves way faster than my fingers can.
I guess I'll start with the fact that we did go to New Orleans.
It was very last minute and stemmed from a very ridiculous night.
Within an hour of talking about it, things were booked and we were packing.
That's apparently how we roll. :)
The drive to NOLA wasn't too bad.
It was an 8 hour drive and we only made two stops.
Unfortunately one of them being in Alabama.
We all know my feelings about Alabama.
There were about 500 bridges we had to cross to get there.
But Ashley did good(she hates bridges).
We got there around 9pm and checked into our hotel.
After of course getting lost first. We can't not get lost lol.
The hotel was very very nice. At least for us lol.
And it was in the middle of everything.
After getting settled we decided to explore a bit.
It was soo hot and humid and it was like 10pm...ridiculous.
We went to the infamous Bourbon Street, which was interesting.
And we went ahead and found the venue, which luckily wasn't too far from the hotel.
While we were walking around we saw the dudes from Play Radio Play hanging out.
Some drunk guy tried to hit on me with this lame ass pick up line.
Great night.
The next day was the day of the show.
We got up early and headed to the venue.
We were the first ones there and the wait began.
Soon after our new friends Jamie and Amber showed up and I'm so glad we got to meet them. They're amazing and so funny.
After a bit of confusion about where the show was supposed to be, they finally decided that it would be in the House of Blues part instead of the Parish which was smaller.
Now before we even left for NOLA we knew that it was supposed to rain the day of the show.
But we were thinking that it wouldn't, or that it would be very light rain.
Oh were we wrong.
Around noon it started to sprinkle. Then that changed into a full blown shower.
We manged to get under a ledge, but that didn't help much.
While we were trying not to get wet, we finally saw a van pull up.
And out of the van comes running Kennedy from The Maine and another guy to move a barricade that was blocking where they were supposed to park.
Seeing Kennedy run in the rain was the funniest thing ever!!!
After about 15 minutes of showers the rain stopped and it got really hot.
More people had shown up by then.
The next band to arrive was The Cab and they were attacked of course lol.
The next thing to happen was both funny as hell and ridiculous at the same time.
I pretty much almost had an asthma attack.
First I hear someone say that he wasn't there yet.
Then I turn around and there he is. Two feet from me.
He came from out of fucking nowhere!
After I finally calmed down we were talking to some girls and found out something very interesting.
Apparently at this venue they have something called "Pass The Line".
If you eat at the HOB restaurant and keep your receipt you get to pass the line for the show.
Fucking ridiculous.
So we basically had to go eat at the restaurant so we wouldn't lose our spot in the front.
And of course he's in the restaurant when we go to eat.
So we all order a salad since it was cheap and we weren't really hungry.
And it took forever. And I'm not exaggerating either.
When we finally get our checks and get ready to leave, it's storming outside.
*Side note. Before we left the restaurant I went up stairs to use the bathroom and apparently he might have followed us up there. Then as we were walking back down he was walking up the stairs. Another mini asthma attack*
Anyway, so we're leaving and it's pouring.
We go to get back in the line and it's ridiculous.
There are so many people and they're all soaked.
Luckily everyone in the front of the line had our backs and knew that we were first.
After that all hell broke loose.
Apparently there were people trying to cut the line.
So everyone runs for the doors and it's just chaos.
Mind you, it's now a full blown monsoon outside.
Someone from the venue had to come out and make everyone get in the right lines.
It was ridiculous.
And it was still an hour before doors and they weren't letting in early.
So it was another hour out in the rain for everyone.
Finally it was time for doors.
I was first in, and headed straight for center right lol.
All our new friends made it on the barricade too.
Then the dance party began.
The Cab was up first and they were amazing!! Ian is fucking amazing at guitar.
Cash is hilarious to watch. I love that kid.
Singer had curly hair which looks better on him lol. And he had awesome shoes.
Overall great set. The kids love them.
Next was Danger Radio. I don't even know what to say about them.
I guess besides the fact that I love them! Fucking dance party!!
They're sooo talented.
And I did good lol.
The Maine was up next. They played an acoustic set.
Pat and Garret weren't there because they were graduating from High School that night.
It was amazing. Ashley almost lost it lol. And she recorded the whole set.
OMGZ Metro Station was next lol.
They were good. The 14 years olds lost their minds.
Mason had on shades. Don't ask me why.
Four words....FOREVER THE SICKEST KIDS!!!!!
Fucking amazing.
It was so much fun watching them.
Jonathon is the best dancer. Fo reals.
Basically that whole night was the ULTIMATE DANCE PARTY!
And it was so worth it. Everything.
The long car ride. The rain. The drama with the line. Asthma attacks. Everything.
And if I had to do it all again, I would in a heartbeat.
It was one of the best shows I've ever been too.
I made some amazing new friends.
And New Orleans is a fantastic city. I can't wait to go back.
I don't really know where to start with this one.
There's so much I want to get out, so much that happened.
But my brain moves way faster than my fingers can.
I guess I'll start with the fact that we did go to New Orleans.
It was very last minute and stemmed from a very ridiculous night.
Within an hour of talking about it, things were booked and we were packing.
That's apparently how we roll. :)
The drive to NOLA wasn't too bad.
It was an 8 hour drive and we only made two stops.
Unfortunately one of them being in Alabama.
We all know my feelings about Alabama.
There were about 500 bridges we had to cross to get there.
But Ashley did good(she hates bridges).
We got there around 9pm and checked into our hotel.
After of course getting lost first. We can't not get lost lol.
The hotel was very very nice. At least for us lol.
And it was in the middle of everything.
After getting settled we decided to explore a bit.
It was soo hot and humid and it was like 10pm...ridiculous.
We went to the infamous Bourbon Street, which was interesting.
And we went ahead and found the venue, which luckily wasn't too far from the hotel.
While we were walking around we saw the dudes from Play Radio Play hanging out.
Some drunk guy tried to hit on me with this lame ass pick up line.
Great night.
The next day was the day of the show.
We got up early and headed to the venue.
We were the first ones there and the wait began.
Soon after our new friends Jamie and Amber showed up and I'm so glad we got to meet them. They're amazing and so funny.
After a bit of confusion about where the show was supposed to be, they finally decided that it would be in the House of Blues part instead of the Parish which was smaller.
Now before we even left for NOLA we knew that it was supposed to rain the day of the show.
But we were thinking that it wouldn't, or that it would be very light rain.
Oh were we wrong.
Around noon it started to sprinkle. Then that changed into a full blown shower.
We manged to get under a ledge, but that didn't help much.
While we were trying not to get wet, we finally saw a van pull up.
And out of the van comes running Kennedy from The Maine and another guy to move a barricade that was blocking where they were supposed to park.
Seeing Kennedy run in the rain was the funniest thing ever!!!
After about 15 minutes of showers the rain stopped and it got really hot.
More people had shown up by then.
The next band to arrive was The Cab and they were attacked of course lol.
The next thing to happen was both funny as hell and ridiculous at the same time.
I pretty much almost had an asthma attack.
First I hear someone say that he wasn't there yet.
Then I turn around and there he is. Two feet from me.
He came from out of fucking nowhere!
After I finally calmed down we were talking to some girls and found out something very interesting.
Apparently at this venue they have something called "Pass The Line".
If you eat at the HOB restaurant and keep your receipt you get to pass the line for the show.
Fucking ridiculous.
So we basically had to go eat at the restaurant so we wouldn't lose our spot in the front.
And of course he's in the restaurant when we go to eat.
So we all order a salad since it was cheap and we weren't really hungry.
And it took forever. And I'm not exaggerating either.
When we finally get our checks and get ready to leave, it's storming outside.
*Side note. Before we left the restaurant I went up stairs to use the bathroom and apparently he might have followed us up there. Then as we were walking back down he was walking up the stairs. Another mini asthma attack*
Anyway, so we're leaving and it's pouring.
We go to get back in the line and it's ridiculous.
There are so many people and they're all soaked.
Luckily everyone in the front of the line had our backs and knew that we were first.
After that all hell broke loose.
Apparently there were people trying to cut the line.
So everyone runs for the doors and it's just chaos.
Mind you, it's now a full blown monsoon outside.
Someone from the venue had to come out and make everyone get in the right lines.
It was ridiculous.
And it was still an hour before doors and they weren't letting in early.
So it was another hour out in the rain for everyone.
Finally it was time for doors.
I was first in, and headed straight for center right lol.
All our new friends made it on the barricade too.
Then the dance party began.
The Cab was up first and they were amazing!! Ian is fucking amazing at guitar.
Cash is hilarious to watch. I love that kid.
Singer had curly hair which looks better on him lol. And he had awesome shoes.
Overall great set. The kids love them.
Next was Danger Radio. I don't even know what to say about them.
I guess besides the fact that I love them! Fucking dance party!!
They're sooo talented.
And I did good lol.
The Maine was up next. They played an acoustic set.
Pat and Garret weren't there because they were graduating from High School that night.
It was amazing. Ashley almost lost it lol. And she recorded the whole set.
OMGZ Metro Station was next lol.
They were good. The 14 years olds lost their minds.
Mason had on shades. Don't ask me why.
Four words....FOREVER THE SICKEST KIDS!!!!!
Fucking amazing.
It was so much fun watching them.
Jonathon is the best dancer. Fo reals.
Basically that whole night was the ULTIMATE DANCE PARTY!
And it was so worth it. Everything.
The long car ride. The rain. The drama with the line. Asthma attacks. Everything.
And if I had to do it all again, I would in a heartbeat.
It was one of the best shows I've ever been too.
I made some amazing new friends.
And New Orleans is a fantastic city. I can't wait to go back.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Temper Temper
You know what?
A simple "Thank You" sometimes would be nice.
Honestly, is it that hard?
People must think I do this shit for fun or something.
But if I don't do it, guess what?
It won't get done.
Anyway, I may or may not be taking a trip to New Orleans with the girls.
It depends on if my check from work comes in time.
And it better, or I'm going to be hella pissed.
I've been stuck in this hell hole for too long.
If said check does come and I do get to go, it's going to be fantastic!!
5 phenomenal bands that I love.
It's been a while since I've been to a show where I like/love every band.
Plus it's in fucking New Orleans!
I've never been and I've wanted to go forever.
Maybe I'll get to practice some of that French I never really learned lol.
It's such a beautiful and vibrant city that we're bound to have a good time.
In addition, there is something that, for my sake needs to go down there.
Well honestly it doesn't need to go down, but I would really really like it to.
I don't know, it's weird.
And if it does happen, I'll probably be the happiest I've ever been.
Yet in the back of my mind I know that it probably won't.
But! I've been trying to squash those thoughts and think positive.
And no one will be able to say I didn't try at least lol.
I do however, have morals.
And I plan to stick to them...maybe...lol.
I've got two scenarios in my head of what could happen.
Basically it does go down or it doesn't.
Being as I am usually 2 steps ahead of myself(rather unconsciously sometimes).
I'm preparing mentally for both.
Hmm...I think I might be thinking wayyy too much into this.
Whatever happens I'm not going to let it dictate the amount of fun I'll have.
But I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
I am the queen of wishful thinking.
A simple "Thank You" sometimes would be nice.
Honestly, is it that hard?
People must think I do this shit for fun or something.
But if I don't do it, guess what?
It won't get done.
Anyway, I may or may not be taking a trip to New Orleans with the girls.
It depends on if my check from work comes in time.
And it better, or I'm going to be hella pissed.
I've been stuck in this hell hole for too long.
If said check does come and I do get to go, it's going to be fantastic!!
5 phenomenal bands that I love.
It's been a while since I've been to a show where I like/love every band.
Plus it's in fucking New Orleans!
I've never been and I've wanted to go forever.
Maybe I'll get to practice some of that French I never really learned lol.
It's such a beautiful and vibrant city that we're bound to have a good time.
In addition, there is something that, for my sake needs to go down there.
Well honestly it doesn't need to go down, but I would really really like it to.
I don't know, it's weird.
And if it does happen, I'll probably be the happiest I've ever been.
Yet in the back of my mind I know that it probably won't.
But! I've been trying to squash those thoughts and think positive.
And no one will be able to say I didn't try at least lol.
I do however, have morals.
And I plan to stick to them...maybe...lol.
I've got two scenarios in my head of what could happen.
Basically it does go down or it doesn't.
Being as I am usually 2 steps ahead of myself(rather unconsciously sometimes).
I'm preparing mentally for both.
Hmm...I think I might be thinking wayyy too much into this.
Whatever happens I'm not going to let it dictate the amount of fun I'll have.
But I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
I am the queen of wishful thinking.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
High Hopes In Velvet Ropes
One of these days I'll own that car.
The only car I've ever really wanted was a Mini Cooper.
For obvious reasons lol.
But really, they're absolutely fabulous.
It's just really frustrating that I can't have it.
Or any car for that matter.
Or the fact that I don't have my license yet.
I'm realizing that it's getting quite sad that I'm 20 and don't drive.
I've been blaming it on the fact that I have this "handicap".
Which I guess isn't really a handicap being as I've never really used this eye anyway.
It is weird to say that I'm legally blind in one eye though.
I'll never have sight in that eye again.
But anyway, there are plenty of people in this world that drive and have worse sight than me.
For the longest time I was mad at my mom for never even encouraging me to overcome this.
You'd think one would encourage their child to still go after those things.
But eh. That's not my mom. I'll definitely have to do this on my own.
I guess I should have known when my older sister had to learn to drive from my mom's boyfriend.
And I doubt my younger sister will have much luck in that department either.
But whatever I'm over it.
Ha obviously not really. I usually try to stay away from the "woe is me". But eh.
I guess this all comes from me being at home with nothing to do.
I'm in my room watching The Princess Diaries on mute and listening to The Cab.
This is a great start to my summer vacation.
And my phone is off so I can't even call anyone to talk.
As with much in my life right now, this is fucking ridiculous.
That phrase seems to be a common one in many of my blogs to date.
I'm trying to figure out what would make my life less "fucking ridiculous"
I don't really know actually.
Maybe the Mini.
Maybe an actual vacation.
Maybe not having to worry about money for once.
Maybe someone.
I don't know.
And frankly I'm just about ready to give up.
One of these days I'll write something optimistic.
Until then...
fucking ridiculous
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Walk On Water Or Drown
Classes are done until August!
Work is done until June!
This is nice.
Very nice lol.
My time until work starts again is going to be spent being lazy.
I've got a lot of reading to get in.
And of course there's a bunch of shows.
As usual.
ROBERT FUCKING PLANT is coming July 10 to Chastian Park.
I still don't believe that I'm going to see him in person.
And *maybe possibly hopefully* get to meet him.
OMFG!!!!!!
I really want to open a bakery here in Athens.
Preferably downtown.
I don't even bake lol.
I'm pretty good at cooking, but I've never tackled baking.
I can picture it all in my head, what it would look like and such.
I just think it would be so cute and fun.
But I know it will be a lot of hard work too.
I think I could do it.
Work is done until June!
This is nice.
Very nice lol.
My time until work starts again is going to be spent being lazy.
I've got a lot of reading to get in.
And of course there's a bunch of shows.
As usual.
ROBERT FUCKING PLANT is coming July 10 to Chastian Park.
I still don't believe that I'm going to see him in person.
And *maybe possibly hopefully* get to meet him.
OMFG!!!!!!
I really want to open a bakery here in Athens.
Preferably downtown.
I don't even bake lol.
I'm pretty good at cooking, but I've never tackled baking.
I can picture it all in my head, what it would look like and such.
I just think it would be so cute and fun.
But I know it will be a lot of hard work too.
I think I could do it.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Misty Mountain Hop
My head hurts like hell today. Stupid migraines.
But I've got only one more final and two days of work then it's summer time!
Well only for a few weeks, then it's back to work(blahhh).
I spent over 200 dollars on four of my school books and I only got back $45.
Fucking ridiculous!
Books shouldn't cost so much in the first place.
I am sooo ready to go home for a while.
I need a fucking break from Athens.
And I can't wait to go back to Florida. Hopefully with Lauren again.
I've decided that I'm probably just going to take out a loan and go to England using that.
I know it'll put me further into debt, but whatever.
I'm not going to be able to do this again anytime soon.
Especially after I graduate.
I'm just going to go for it and do it.
No thinking twice.
Well I have to get the money first, but once I do, I'm going.
I might do it for my 21st birthday.
That'll give me enough time to plan it all out.
I need to get a passport.
It would be nice to go with my Nana since she's already been there before.
But we'll see.
London, get ready! Here I come :)
But I've got only one more final and two days of work then it's summer time!
Well only for a few weeks, then it's back to work(blahhh).
I spent over 200 dollars on four of my school books and I only got back $45.
Fucking ridiculous!
Books shouldn't cost so much in the first place.
I am sooo ready to go home for a while.
I need a fucking break from Athens.
And I can't wait to go back to Florida. Hopefully with Lauren again.
I've decided that I'm probably just going to take out a loan and go to England using that.
I know it'll put me further into debt, but whatever.
I'm not going to be able to do this again anytime soon.
Especially after I graduate.
I'm just going to go for it and do it.
No thinking twice.
Well I have to get the money first, but once I do, I'm going.
I might do it for my 21st birthday.
That'll give me enough time to plan it all out.
I need to get a passport.
It would be nice to go with my Nana since she's already been there before.
But we'll see.
London, get ready! Here I come :)
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