Temper Temper

You know what?
A simple "Thank You" sometimes would be nice.
Honestly, is it that hard?
People must think I do this shit for fun or something.

But if I don't do it, guess what?

It won't get done.

Anyway, I may or may not be taking a trip to New Orleans with the girls.
It depends on if my check from work comes in time.
And it better, or I'm going to be hella pissed.
I've been stuck in this hell hole for too long.

If said check does come and I do get to go, it's going to be fantastic!!
5 phenomenal bands that I love.
It's been a while since I've been to a show where I like/love every band.
Plus it's in fucking New Orleans!

I've never been and I've wanted to go forever.
Maybe I'll get to practice some of that French I never really learned lol.
It's such a beautiful and vibrant city that we're bound to have a good time.
In addition, there is something that, for my sake needs to go down there.

Well honestly it doesn't need to go down, but I would really really like it to.
I don't know, it's weird.
And if it does happen, I'll probably be the happiest I've ever been.
Yet in the back of my mind I know that it probably won't.

But! I've been trying to squash those thoughts and think positive.
And no one will be able to say I didn't try at least lol.
I do however, have morals.
And I plan to stick to them...maybe...lol.

I've got two scenarios in my head of what could happen.
Basically it does go down or it doesn't.
Being as I am usually 2 steps ahead of myself(rather unconsciously sometimes).
I'm preparing mentally for both.

Hmm...I think I might be thinking wayyy too much into this.
Whatever happens I'm not going to let it dictate the amount of fun I'll have.
But I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
I am the queen of wishful thinking.