Sparkle Baby Shine

So I was watching tv last night and I heard something that really really bugs me. It was said by a bigger girl, and she pretty much said that because of the fact that's she's big she only likes wearing jeans and t-shirts. And that nothing fits her. Now hearing that bugs the crap out of me. I honestly think that's a cop out and an excuse.

There are plenty of cute clothes for bigger girls. You just have to look for them. And really they're not that hard to find anyway. Trust me, I know lol.

I know that I could stand to lose a lottttttttt of weight lol, but it's a process and until I'm at the size I want to be, I'm not just going to let myself go. I mean you can still be cute but jeeze. You gotta try sometimes. You've gotta have some confidence in yourself.

While I'm on that subject, it also bugs me when I hear people talk about how they hate how they look yet they don't do anything about it. It's like, you're not going to wake up and be skinnier. Sorry. You gotta work at it.

You only get one body, love it, and as Tim Gunn would say...Make It Work! (Oh how I miss Project Runway)

It's taken me a looooong time to get to this point in my life. The point where I love myself for me and I'm actually content with myself. There are still plenty of times where I'll see girls and be like God, they're so skinny and there's that hint of jealousy. But that's human. And then I'm over it.

Although now it seems most of the jealousy is because of the boys *cough*WilliamBeckett*cough* lol. They're all so tiny nowadays. Gotta love scene boys hahaha.

My goal for the summer is to continue to build up my confidence. Especially learning to speak up when I've got something to say. I don't want anymore regrets, no more "I should have said something on the damn stairs". No more waiting around for the right words to say. I'm just going to go for it. And what happens, happens.

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